track 08: going in for life
september 12, 2023
I don’t know what to write about exactly. But, I saw this video on TikTok urging people sit in silence and not fall into the urge for distractions, and then the Calm app meditation for the day was about silence. So, I’ll take it as a sign from the Universe.
I guess I’ve also been trying to just be more truly present and resist the temptation of running to my outlets to fill the silent space.
Sometimes, when it gets quiet like this, I wonder if there is something I should be worried about. I start to get worried and thoughts of “am I getting sick?”…”are my finances okay?”…”are people mad at me?” corrupt my mind as if I’m looking for reasons that I am undeserving of this peace of mind.
Honestly, being in Singapore is a great metaphor for how I feel about life. Singapore is like this eerie utopia. I only say eerie because I think that I am just so used to chaos that “safe” feels weird to me.
I almost didn’t like it at first. I kept wondering “where is the crime and chaos?” (which is terrible lol) But, Singapore feels like…the world peace that all of those beauty pageant contestants hope for.
There’s a perfect ratio of buildings to greenery; a perfect balance of different races; a very convenient transit system; the roads are so strategically paved out that the “traffic” here is actually bearable; it’s incredibly clean; and no one bothers you - literally, my cousin’s 9 year old daughter takes the transit by herself, which is incredible.
I feel as if this whole time I’ve been in Singapore I’ve been trying to find it’s faults.
What I didn’t realize is that a lot of Singapore is man made. Singapore has very limited natural resources actually. Which explains why it feels like someone wrote this city into ChatGPT to be artificially created.
All jokes aside, by no means am I hating on this city. It’s been so beautiful to experience, and it’s opened my eyes up to see that life doesn’t have to thrive on chaos - some people just want a quiet, safe life for themselves and their families - and rightfully so.
But, I think I’ve also realized that for me - it doesn’t rank above or lower than any other Asian country I’ve visited. I think that every single one so far had held its own charm in its own way, and I can appreciate each country for what it is without comparison to another.
Anyway - thank you, Singapore (and honestly, to my cousins that currently live here) for opening my eyes up to the attainability for a different type of lifestyle for myself. For not being afraid to want more out of life, more safety, more peace, and even more luxury.
going in for life - drake
I don't think they really ready for my wardrobe
I show up right before the store close
And blow the fee from my last four shows
I do one song and use four flows
She used to be a Christian before
Now, all she wanna do is shop for Christian Dior clothes
Like, "Baby, those are cute, I adore those"
Me and the salesman build a rapport so
He understand the fact that I'm spending offshore dough
Cash-only transactions, homie
And please, no receipts—the feds like to explore those
They can't audit if they dont know I bought it
Been doing it for years, homie; thoroughly, I thought it...
Through, what it do? I am currently recording on a track
Admitting most of my currency’s imported
But too late now, it's too legitimate to hit 'em with...
A lawsuit, even if those are acts that I did commit
Repeat offender, Anita Baker playing in the whip
As they pull me over, "my sweet surrender"
I got a Jewish lawyer as my lead defender
A Menschkeit, as they say; he’s a legal bender
And ATF is present, every regal member
The coalition is so efficient
You have to be invited, or there's no admission
We know tradition, we spend money
So don't try to compete if you in no position
I wish you would listen
I take you back to this trial
Where I am about to be home again like New Edition
My foot is just solely fit for this shoe it fits in
Used to record in the basement that Renny grew his piff in
When Pops turned over keys like a new ignition
If Hov is Jordan, I guess I'm cool with Pippen
'Til I mention that I wanna play a new position
No team-playing, no screen-setting
"Because I wanna win games, Coach, I'm through assisting"
The takeover, the break's over
And I'ma keep killing 'em until the day that Drake's over
The wait's over, the tape's coming
They bullshitting, but I am equipped with great plumbing
The human mentality, so eager to hate something
And try to play it off like it ain't jumping
And it's the predicament that you found Drake in
The condo that I just purchased sound vacant
'Cause I have just been sittin' in this cell
Thinking what I could've done to make my first video groundbreaking
And whenever I'm flowing on the mic
Aside from talking 'bout the D I'm throwing in your wife
I treat this one session as if it were my last
And I pretend tomorrow is the day I'm going in for life, like that!